Jo86
hey forum,
it's a well known thing that some spank the monkey to go to bed. As some of you know, I'm completely dying these days and it's getting worse by the day - NOTICEABLY. I don't know what the hell is causing such a big change daily...anyways.
Today I masturbated around 1pm, couldn't hold it, was extremely stimulated, for some reason in my supreme misery of brainfog and being lost in space all the while being in my body. And then, though I'd woken up at 11:20am I went back to bed and felt very relaxed, tried some deep breathing but felt in minutes I was falling asleep.
Now it's 6:30pm, and I'm still 'hung over' from having slept about 20min.
BUT THE LARGER POINT IS:
could it be my entire adrenal destruction is based on masturbation and sleep alone ? or at least, those being a huge aspect of it ?
After all, the only thing that noticeably makes me physically worse/better is sleep.
If I sleep and wake up late, I feel far beyond miserable, it's unutterable. And if I contain that a bit, I feel better....relatively...
Maybe they work together...and I've tried stopping mast. totally, but only held for a week, and had to do it again coz I don't drink anymore, rarely have any food I like, and quit smoking...it's sort of my only relief. Didn't feel a difference in a week, though I'm sure everyone will say 'well it's not enough to assess'.
Your thoughts ? (please !)