Hey everybody ;) , I hope you can help me on my healing path, I am amazed on the knowledge that is shared here.
I was brought up with bad food, did not do sports at all and suffered from some traumas when being a child and teenager(bad relationship between parents, very unconcsious parents in general, no stable family background, very foggy insecure feeling within the whole family due to cancer of my sister, school and peer traumas from being a bad student due to depression). i basically was not exposing myself, living in a fantasy world of inactivity, unworthiness, severe depression, jealousy and guilt. i know there are worse stories, but i was always very introverted and a good actor, so i never really recovered these traumas properly...i managed to hide my Depression from my boyfriend for years, just to show you the amount of emotional denial here. i always felt worse off than others and i grieved alot for not having had a teenager time of being adored. it still hurts me to see seemingly perfectly well, healthy 16 year olds who are just living life. i am in my early 20ies now but still dont really feel like a woman...i know i am and can also express that sexually in the right moment, or while i am totally in tune with myself (when the sourroundings are right, at a really good party for instance).

My health as a teenager:
overweight, heavy cellulite, varicose veins, cold hand and feet, foot fungus, headache, throat infections at least 4 times a year, dandruff, sluggishness, hard stools up to anal fissure, acne, pasty inflamed skin in my face, eczema on my right underarm, right hip bursa inflamed at every few months caused by stress, numb feeling in my toes at times, stronger Body Odor (increased by stress)

I really believed that that was just how life was, that there are just lucky ones and unlucky ones and that it was normal to go to the doctor every now and then and take meds.

this improved tremendously over the last four years by: quitting toxic household cleansers and cosmetics, quitting medication for minor diseases, training body towards using natural deodorant, eating mostly organic food, having meat and fish very seldomly.

the last 2 years was the second round of my healing journey, where i saw major improvement in overall health. as if my cells where exchanged by healthy ones. that was due to: introduction of raw and superfoods into diet, daily tongue scraping, more active lifestyle, yoga and meditation. I did not have to see a doctor the last two years and also did not take any medication! ;) i also shackled off a lot of traumas recently and experienced a leap in concsiousness during breathwork sessions and by loving and being loved.

Now that I am in tune with my energies and more intuitive about health, I feel that aligning body and soul, healing fully, is my biggest mission! I feel as if deep inside old emotions are still stored, my body is also not 100% where i want it. I would like to change that as soon as possible.

still to improve:
-cellulite
-last bits of varicose veins on upper legs
-finally getting clear facial skin (it must have internal reasons as i tried out so much the last years and am very happy with my mild cosmetic routine)
-improving muscle tone and posture especially in my shoulders and back (i did not "walk tall" for a decades and have a bad back)
-heal memory and nervous system
-how to replace one missing first lower molar (had a very bad oral health as a child...which also causes me a lot of mental pain)?
-getting rid of a mercury filling
-i also feel a heaviness in my throat (chakra...or thyroid)occasionally. i can pinpoint the reasons when that happens: lack of expressing myself and my wishes, not able to speak up, lots of seeming problems with friends and family, feeling exposed when saying my opinion in uni. i do not want this to become a problem (my mother has hashimoto thyr.) but i feel that this is an area that needs a lot of attention!!!!!!!! what to do best?
-sugar and carb cravings after stress or to for intensity
-how to tackle irrational behavior, lack of discipline....i am in university, but i still sabotage myself and that makes me suffer
-phlegm
-sometimes, like twice a year, my right hip starts to inflame again in periods of stress...i managed so far with magnesium oil,eating lots of ginger and instant rest. how to fully get this fixed?


Where to start? Especially my throat chakra is one of my biggest concerns, i am afraid of getting sick. I feel very alone in this, overwhelmed by the info out here and would love to have some sort of healer available....Unfortunately I do not have the money for Ayurvedic treatments or an wholistic doctor, so I would like to know what I can do to heal myself. Is it recomendable to go on a parasitic cleanse, candida cleanse, liver flush, colon to clear out the whole system for good, even if one has no strong symptoms? I have been exposed to a lot of toxicity, so maybe it would be a good thing to do...what is your opinion on this? How is this all best tackled at home? Any infos, please share!!

Wishing everyone the best health and thanks for your answers!