Hi,
I mean Multiple Chemical Sensitivity. I am so sick with this that I couldn't work if I wanted to and severe Adrenal exhaustion I have young kids and can barely care for them on my own. I have been on curezone for years with some success then only to take huge steps back. I will be going to see the doctor soon and try to get this sorted out some more just incase I have Addison's disease.

A lot of things have been happening with my husband and he acts so peculiar lately. I had a dream about him before we even started dating and hardly knew each other and through the entire dream I could not figure out if he loved me or was trying to kill me. It was such an odd dream because I hardly knew him and he seemed so great I just wrote if off as a silly dream.

The funny thing is , is that is exactly how our marriage has been. He does some very questionable things yet I can't read him and for the life of me do not know if the things he is doing is just coincidence and look bad ,like he says ,or if he really is trying to kill me.

Anyways thank you for writing and praying because I really am very scared and confused right now.

Thank you for replying and yes I mean Multiple Chemical Sensitivity. What do you mean that you sense it? Do you mean by divine revelation as from God or sense it as if a strong suspicion? Sorry for all the questions just didn't completely understand what you meant.

I have some alpha lipoic acid and am wondering if I can still take it. It has never been opened but it was left in my trunk on some hot summer days and I was wondering if it is still good or perhaps the heat ruined it.

Yes, I sense a lot of the same things about your safety. It is paramount. Jesus told us that we would suffer in this world and might even die, but He said it would be for the gospel, not for a manic spouse's rage. Your safety is paramount right now. What if your husband did kill you? What would happen to your girls? Their mom would be dead and their father would be a menace. I'm not trying to manipulate your emotions, but I am stating what sounds like a possible scenario and say that for your children, you MUST do the right thing, whatever that is. If you feel threatened, you HAVE to take that seriously. We cannot always hear correctly, but Jesus said that each of us are His sheep and that we hear His voice and follow Him. Don't dismiss something He may be speaking to you about. You must focus on the important things right now, which are your safety and the safety of your children. Finances should not be a concern. In this world it is everything, but you must remember that Jesus said that if our Father sees to it that the lillies of the field are clothed and the birds of the air are fed, how much more will He take care of us, but to not worry about our lives as to what we will eat or wear, for life is more than these things. If you are in danger, for goodness sakes don't keep yourself there because of money. Father, I pray for this woman in Jesus' name that you visit her in power just as you did our spiritual forefathers and mothers in the faith and grant her boldness and wisdom to know what to do and the boldness/courage to do it. Father meet with her and envelop her in your love and protect her I ask in Jesus' name. I ask that you would protect her in every way in jesus' name

Hi,
What do you mean you sense a lot of the same things about my safety? Please clarify.
Another words do you feel this is something the Lord is telling you?

you stated not to stay for the money and you are right. The only problem with this is that I am sooooooo weak and sick I can not even cook for myself. I am so extremely exhausted and weak and being outside where I am exposed to fumes and or perfumes or anything sends me into a deep tail spin. I am really really ill and can not imagine wanting anyone ever wanting to go through this. I am thinking my adrenal glands are failing and I think I am starting to have problems with my thyroid. I have been trying to get into the doctor and I was told to wait several weeks to call for an appointment. Well I called today and they told me it would be another 3-6 weeks. I am so week and exhausted and scared I don't know what to do. I can't care for my own children properly and I have a mother that really doesn't care too much about this so I have no help. My father is dead and most of my family thinks this is something I can overcome if I just try harder. So no one really understands the extent of my health issues.

If I leave and go to a shelter I am probably going to die. I have to be so careful now to avoid even the smallest chemicals. I know that If I stay I could die as well. I just am not 100 percent sure I am right about my husband. For example: I had several health supplements that would help with my various issues and they just recently disappeared. I think my husband threw them away so I won't get better but I have no proof. I had them in my car and the 3 days he took the car to work they ended up disappearing. Another example: I woke up one night very ill and asking for help and saying i was really weak. He thought I was more sleepy then awake and didn't think I would notice him ignoring me. I brought it to his attention and he said he never heard me except he was standing right next to me. Maybe he was watching tv and just really spaced out and was telling the truth. Another time he put something in my purse that I just told him I was allergic to. He said he thought it would be ok to put it in my purse because it was still in a package and I would not be exposed to the product inside. I thought that was suspect but maybe he was telling the truth. Another time I told him I have become so chemically sick that I can not even touch the remote control without getting really sick and for the first time ever he offered to let me control the remote control that night. I thought that was odd after telling him I can not touch the remote without becoming really ill. He said he just forgot and I don't know whether to believe him or not.

There were more things then the above but they involve intimate details and I don't want to gross anyone out. So I won't go into them but it seems like he is taking things I am chemically sensitive to and trying to put them in my path on purpose. However it has happened so many times that it doesn't look like coincidence any longer. Yet what if I am wrong and they are all coincidences and I break up a marriage over nothing. Some things have happened that I thought I remembered that were really bad. Like one day I remember telling him I need milk over and over again cause my blood Sugar was dangerously low. I went into a seizure. And he just kept shushing me and trying to lull me into a sleep whenever I asked for help. I could have swore it happened but he swears to God on his very soul that he could never do that and I am wrong and started crying. Now I am not sure If I am remembering correctly and am starting to question my own sanity.

To some people I may look stupid but it's really hard when you can't even be around other people without getting deathly ill from the various chemicals we use in our society. I would have no problem leaving til I knew what to do if I was healthy but I am a lot sicker then I can even explain and going outside of my home to stay at a shelter would mean I am exposed to possible mold (deathly allergic to mold), bleach (extremely allergic and get very ill when around this), any cleaning products that are not all natural and free and clear (like the ones I use from seventh generation make me deathly ill. Even a childs bouncing ball makes me extremely ill. I can't be around my children's toys most of the time or electronic games. I have to leave the room when an air purifier is being used. I was extremely ill when going near my computer and for some strange reason I have been able to use it where I have not been able to even be in the same room as before. But I have been around other people's computers and still get very ill. I do not understand this. All I know is that anything plugged in just about makes me so ill I can't walk, talk or even hardly think.

So leaving is not so much of an option for me right now.

Thank you so much for praying for me and taking the time to right me. It really means a lot. Most of my family won't listen. I have been telling my mother and sister for a while that I feel unsafe and they know of my health condition and neither one has really offered to help. So it means a lot when complete strangers take the time to talk to you and pray.

Hi,
I'm sorry I took so long to respond but I just now came back and checked on this forum.
Thank you for praying for me! That means a lot to me! As for the reiki healing. Thanks so much for offering but I am a little scared of that sort of thing. I will have to say let me think about it because I just am not sure what I believe about that. Is that Ok to get back to you on it? Thanks for the specific prayers about my husband I really feel they are needed. I just want to thank you and everyone on here for your prayers and advice. It really means more to me then you will know. I hope that you will continue to pray because I really don't have that many people to pray for me right now and I really feel backed into a corner myself.