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the day before my fast
“Try not to do too many things at once. Know what you want, the number one thing today and tomorrow. Persevere and get it done.”
dmg George Allen quotes (American football Coach. Noted for his hard-driving work ethic. 1922-1990)
Date: 5/27/2007 12:12:42 AM ( 17 y ) ... viewed 2406 times I tried to start my 21 day water fast today. It worked out fine till evening then I finally gave in to my cravings and had cookies and wheat biscuits. I am not sure why, but I suppose I lost the will to fight the cravings.
During the day, I experienced constant cravings and my mind was swarmed with thoughts of foods, especially biscuits and chips. I spent a lot of energy fighting them but eventually succeeded when I persevered and continued my work.
In the end though, I still failed. But it is ok. There is tomorrow.
So here goes.
Here is a brief writeup about me. I am a medical student who suffered from eczema since 14. I was prescribed the usual miracle drug steriods for 4 years, during which my eczema worsened and spread from my limb joints to the rest of my body. When I was 19, I decided to halt all allopathic medication and seek a cure. I tried chinese medicine, probiotics, colon cleanse. At first things were going downhill. I was incapacitated, in great pain with bleeding, weeping and parched skin, constipated, lethargic and depressed. Then, my leakage gut syndrome began to heal after a year of persistent colon cleanse, detox (with GNC Ultimate Clease), small fasts. However, things took a turn for the worst when my family situation became increasingly turbulent and I was physically, emotionally and psychologically abused. Right now, I have moved out of the house and taking full responsibility for my life: academics, health, finance, friends, love. My intention for this fast is to fix the remaining stubborn eczema areas of my body and shed the extra 10kg I put on as a result emotional binging and purging from the stresses in my life. I hope that the next 3 weeks will change my life.
My current condition
In general, my skin is dull but with renewal, the skin seems to be getting fairer, more supple--an indication of strengthening health. My face and nexk tend to be dry. My sternal area is slightly scattered with injuries. My pelvic area is dry. My front knees' skin has healed but has some inflammation. The front lower leg is scattered with injuries and dry. The back of my knees are inflammed and dry. My feet ventrums are slightly dry. I want to revive my olfactory and tactile senses. And I am sick of feeling fat and ugly. I want to lose my 10kg.
My rewards
I have a summer vacation with my long-distance boyfriend once I complete the fast. I want to flaunt my body, well at least I wish to be comfortable in my body and cute summer clothes. Oh and health. I want to be healthy and deciding totransit into a ovo-lacto vegetarianism.
One of my favourite singers: avril
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