Dear Isabella,

there's something seriously wrong with me. It always takes me ages to realize that you have started a different blog yet again.. ;-) Well, finally I have noticed, huh :)

Anyways.. Even though I understand completely how you feel, I agree wholeheartedly with what Goodsamaritan (on curezone) says - eczema is actually a blessing. It tells us there's something wrong and it manifests itself on the outside (there are worse ways of learning there's something wrong, believe me - my mum died of cancer and I believe it wasn't necessary at all). Your frustration and self-hatred is not a symptom, it's one of the reasons, one of the major things that "are wrong". I know you struggle hard to heal yourself in and out and fasting is a tremendous help once we've gotten thus far, but I believe the roots are elsewhere. It's all in our head and soul, the way we treat ourselves (and the people around us when it comes to it). I myself bear a lot of grudge against myself and at the top I hate myself for hating myself ;-) A kind of vicious circle. Finding my place in myself is my primary goal now, I try very hard not to try so hard since basically all that's gong on is a good thing - it's here to teach us something and all we have to do is listen carefully. I find philosophy this very calming.

Please, Isabella, don't compare yourself with all the other girls, the skin, the blah blah blah.. You are absolutely unique, nobody else is even close to what you are. Finding yourself (and you seem to be doing a great job there) is crucial. Love. Plus how can one love the beloved without loving oneself? I struggle in a similar way, let's head there and hope we get there with as few detours as possible :)

Love

Vanda