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Starting tomorrow! Intro and goals.
Day one of the MC starts tomorrow. Here are my reasons, my goals and my stats.
Date: 7/26/2006 6:30:48 PM ( 18 y ) ... viewed 3221 times Well I'm starting my 30 day (or more) Master Cleanse tomorrow. Actually I'm kicking it off by fasting on water my first day. I like to do that because it reminds me that I won't die without food - LOL! Ideally I would love to do a water fast only because I am extremely lazy and you can't get much easier than just drinking distilled water. However, I am so toxic right now that I wouldn't make it past the first day.
Okay, a little about me. I'm 39 years old - and I feel every one of them. I have always been interested in healthy eating, alternative medicine, etc. However, this has not necessarily translated into my following what I've learned. In fact, I am a SAD addict. Luckily - or perhaps unluckily, my body has an amazing ability to take the toxic lifestyle I live and not show it too much. At least that was the case in the past. I got by without gaining a lot of weight, looking too old or feeling too bad.
However, after my last child 4 years ago, my body hasn't bounced back the way it once did. My lifestyle is catching up to me and I look older than 39 and am gaining weight. I look the worst I ever have and quite honestly I'm ashamed at how I've let myself go.
There was always the Scarlett O'Hara syndrome with me - you know "I'll think about it tomorrow". I've been trying to go raw for 3.5 years now and have never gotten beyond 10 days at 100% raw. I've also tried to do the MC several times in the past 3 years and have never made it past 7 days. But I always rebounded with worse habits. I don't just eat SAD, I eat a junky, high fat, highly processed, fast food type of SAD. The only thing that has saved me I believe is my habit of eating fruit on an empty stomach most mornings and eating plenty of salads.
I have started and failed so many times that my family, while supportive, can't help rolling their eyes when I state I'm changing my ways again. I've come to realize that not only am I losing their faith in me but I've lost my faith in myself. My self esteem is very low right now because I've let myself get overweight and out of shape and keep failing at turning it around.
And keeping journals or blogs doesn't keep me accountable. I have no problem stuffing my feelings of failure and inadequacy with fast food.
But as my 40th birthday looms 1 year from now I realize that I no longer have the luxury of youth to fall back on. Not to say I'm old but my body is definitely unable to keep up with my bad habits anymore. I've been lucky not to develop any serious health problems but there are some signs of things down the road.
So the rest of this year is dedicated to being raw. I'm choosing to do a master cleanse first because I have so little energy right now and the idea of fixing anything is overwhelming. I am hoping an extended MC will begin to clear me out, reduce my appetite and recharge my batteries enough to help me cope with a major lifestyle change.
Below I will post current symptoms/problems I have as well as my stats so that in 30 days I can assess how far I've come.
Issues:
Fatigue
Depression
Sensitive/painful teeth (just started this week)
About 24 lbs overweight
Out of shape (muscle has turned to fat)
2 new moles on my neck
Neck problems
Trouble sleeping/staying asleep
Blotchy skin/age spots
Dark circles under eyes
Red bumps/spots on back of arm
Dry, unruly hair
Dry skin
Saddlebags on thighs
Blubbery belly (new experience for me)
Cystocele
Legs and hips going numb at night while sleeping
Moody and irritable most days
Quick temper with kids
Laziness
Lack of creativity
I've tried to list everything because I've heard that once you go raw or do the MC for a bit that you tend to forget just how bad you felt. I want to be able to look back and see the little successes and improvements to help during the tough times.
I'm not looking to lose weight with the MC necessarily because I know my body will reach its correct weight once I follow up with the raw foods. However, I do look forward to the feeling of emptiness and hope I lose a little bit of inches so my clothes are a little more comfortable.
Stats:
Bust: 35"
Waist: 32"
Hips: 36.5"
Butt: 38"
R. bicep (unflexed): 11"
Upper R. Thigh: 23"
Upper L. Thigh: 23.25
Lower R. Thigh: 18.5"
Lower L. Thigh: 19"
'kay, well that's all for now. Day one starts tomorrow.
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