Funny how time flies by.......
new day
Date: 8/9/2006 1:36:25 PM ( 18 y ) ... viewed 1814 times It's a hot August day, the weight loss has gone no where quickly. Back in the gym and eating well (unless you count the chocolate I just consumed.) and starting to slim down---I just really want the scale to talk to me.
Kind of bummed out. We had said that I"d stay home until the baby (he's 2) was ready for K, but it hasn't turned out that way. After some major stuff through daycare came through my family has asked me to shut down. I respect that and am finding new homes for the kids (other ppls, not mine) but I'm mourning the loss of staying home. At the end of the month I'll be out there with the rest competing for a job, paying daycare, and doing the grind.
Sad, prayerful, challenged, and losing hope of the miracle that will keep me home. But at least I re-found my inner blog :-) I"m hoping that over time this will work, that I'll find my groove, that my baby will be okay.
I lifted weights today, walked on the treadmill, reminded myself that it's okay. Looked at the sunny skies over our pool (and the HUGE pile of dirt behind that), sighed, drank some water, followed by coffee with rice milk, sighed again....realized that I have church training tonight and need to change my shirt!! Looked at dogs online. Mourned the dog we tearfully gave away because of daycare regs. Spoke and had a conversation with my teenager that was more than 'hi' and 'goodbye'.
This is good, and now it's carpool time!
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