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Missing Events--Upsetting
Missing Events--Upsetting
Date: 1/25/2013 12:31:07 AM ( 11 y ) ... viewed 8353 times
10:24 pm
January 24, 2013
There was a very beautiful event going on downtown.
I wasn't sure I had the energy to go.
I am still not that strong after five weeks of weakness due to colds, cold,
and flu-like symptoms.
Tonight, rather than go out, I went through a few piles of Bank Statements and bills while all the while feeling disoriented and bereaved that I have lost my sense of community.
I am feeling very old.
A new generation of leaders has moved in.
I feel disoriented.
I realize that I worked many hours last year toward one goal, YES on Prop 37.
I left many things behind to give this the focus that I did.
There are other build up in my space of old disorder that has accumulated.
I really do not have the strength to go to the beautiful event that is happening still downtown.
Woe is me....what will become of me?
The things I have based my identify on seem out of touch.
Where is my community?
Where are the people whose lives have been the foundation of interaction?
I feel like reaching out.
11:02 pm
Why DO I FEEL SICK IN THE FIRST PLACE
I feel left out, a lack of self expression.
No place anymore where I fit in my local community in the places that were important to me.
I feel very sorry I did not find a way to go.
I did not see the fullness of the event.
I am not feeling the energy to put myself out.
What are the roots of this?
10:29 pm
January 24, 2013
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