Something wonderful, something new
... Or something frightening, if you think it fully through. It's now about a quarter to two in the morning, and I've had a major, major low blood sugar. The difference is, how it happened~
Date: 11/8/2012 7:21:07 PM ( 10 y ) ... viewed 5954 times
I've been learning to detox since my last major insomnia. three months of increasing pressures and excitements took it all out of me, and now I have to learn to put the ingredients that make up a good brain in my head again. It's not easy, but I'm sort of on a one-way track- I don't care for hopeless, frightening insomnias, not one bit, and this time a lot of stuff simply fell into place for me to try and approach the problem differently.
#1, the cheapest cat litter here is 80% dolomite clay, 20% smectite clay, and a little bit of oils to control the scent.
#2, the next-cheapest cat litter is calcium bentonite from greece, unpowdered, very nice, great for external use.
#3 My third big order of supplements arrived. I do artwork commissions for friends, and can get a little bit of spending money that way. It came on thursday the 25th/Oct.
But back to reality (in a manner of speaking). Something different has happened while I woke up from this current low blood sugar. I woke up while my subconscious brain was working on some sort of logic problem, and I realized my ears were ringing hard. Sort of like that crystal noise when you lick your finger and rim a wineglass with water in it? Just more metallic.
It was a low blood sugar at 2,3. Now, for folk who don't know me yet, I'm an insulin pumper, I am a cancer survivor who has only one hand, and I swear, life's tried to kill me an awful lot of times and never quuuiiite succeeded.
It's happened before a few times after I first tried vitamin D3. I would lay in bed, and instead of dreaming or blacking out, I would find myself subconsciously drifting and listening to my subconscious logic or play with the concepts I was curious about before sleeping. Or, sometimes, be working on stuff I hadn't even properly thought of in the daytime. It's not like the hindbrain cares too vigilantly if what it's doing is synchronous with the what the forebrain wants.
So I'm about a week and a half out of my last big insomnia. This time it came on because I was foolish and took NAC tabs over a two week period- only 600 mg of it. That literally -induced- a dermal neuro-pathy and simple insomnia, and my doctor had to order a set of sleeping pills down to the pharmacy.
I've been following instructions from other forum members here on Curezone as to how best recover, and taking the B-complex in combination with the right minerals and diet is making me constantly go low glucose levels at night. Night is when you are in the process of bodily regeneration, so it's also the time I should watch for my own insulin requirements. So night lows..? While irritating, I can still accept them.
I have the forum posts, of course, but haven't put them up yet. Putting them up here on the blog takes some work. Comment to me, then I'll put some backbone in it! The past few days and nights though... well, I've been working on easing my backbone and sleeping.
I woke up currently though with a powerful feeling of my muscles being puched- squeezed, lots of gravity (grabbity?), the same as I feel when I have lots of oxygen in the blood and then use acai-berry tea. It's the same as when I was very magnesium-deficient and took vitamin D3- my muscles shuddered, my neurons went 'whee!' and it was a suction of nutrients ino my muscle system.
Which wasn't so great in the long run because I hadn't figured out the magnesium part, but blahblah.
What I am doing is working. My first and foremost goal is improved health and insomnia prevention, my second is an active lifestyle, and my third, my simple prayer, is a cure. Who knows? It might be the right track- it's just rocky, and needs one step at a time.
Something of the type I'd be stupid to ignore happened yesterday, though. A forum member has been urging me to get ahold of nictonic acid (or niaminicide) for detox and neural support. The research papers on it are sound, I like the idea even if my first experience (through a really rough night after using coffee the wrong way in) was frightening (look up Niacin flush).
I really, really haven't had any money for such a thing since the weekend though. I bought lots of fresh foods in seeking to recover, and my head had not been clear at -all- until things were sorted out. But yesterday morning I took bottles up to the grocery store to return them for the deposit, and got some coins back, and voila, there was a whole box full of soda bottles that weren't accepted in that store.
So I stood there, stared, looked left and right, and then started stuffing them in my bag. I took them to another store, got more coins, and then continued my walk.. and then called a friend to ask if he wanted a chat visit. He's elderly, halting when he walks because of a long-since broken bone, and loves beer and chatter, and so is (aha!) and consistent source of cans.
So you can guess where this goes, right?
I deposited all I earned today in the bank, and it's just enough for a bottle of niacin. My only thought in the back of my mind is whether it should be nictonic acid or niaminicide, and I haven't ordered yet. Better things step by step than all at once!
Y-ah-owv-ah preserve me, I'm technically in full rebellion against the norm. Huaah.. sometimes you have to have the right eyes to see the miracle, and sometimes the miracle is simply being alive. <3
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