Date: 1/22/2011 11:41:41 AM ( 13 y ) ... viewed 32833 times
9:14 am
January 22, 2011
Woke up with a song going through my mind.
"Go to a place I will show you."
Lech Lecha....
It is a song by Debbie Friedman who
went to an other place a few weeks ago.
She died of Pneumonia.
The Song has to do with leaving where you are
and going to another place.
My heart is really not in this place.
I don't want to get to into that right now.
IT IS SHABBAT MORNING
Where is my heart?
In what place?
What have I energy to do?
I would like to get a haircut.
I would like to prepare a few of the kabocha squash
from Joe the Farmer, JR Organics.
THERE IS A POTLUCK LATER
This is a gathering.
I WOULD LIKE TO TAKE SOME OF
THE ESSENE SCHOOL OFTHOUGHT TAPES TO RON DEXTER
He said he would transfer them to cd from cassette.
Where is that old contract that says I can do stuff with
a percent of the material? Panicy feeling.....
I get up..Oh here it is.
SHELF TO CLEAR...
Old beloved....her transformation...
She is still my best friend,
but I do not want to take these with me.
I will have have the room for this if I leave.
ALL THE JENSEN ARCHIVES
Call Stephen Markowitz
I would think there is a yes at the other end
of wanting to have them stored there.
Is there a time later when I can come up
to organize them?
POTLUCK TODAY
Where is it?
Go find out out.
I am hungry now.
I smell eggs.
I remember a poem I wrote about Barbara making eggs
in the kitchen.
NO CONVERSATION TODAY WANTED
ON HOUSE BUSINESS
Thank you.
I do not want to speak to others in the kitchen.
DAD VIDEO
A VISIT WITH MY FATHER SOLOMON
This was made in March 2010
How come food means so much to me?
My mother died when I was 12 of cancer.
My aunt had cancer a few years later,
but recovered through alternative approaches.
This marked me.
There was some sweet video of my dad.
Where is that?
I would like to upload that.
GO TO A PLACE I WILL SHOW YOU?
Some place where I do not have to manage
the lives of eight people living here.
It is a repeated pattern.
I am grateful for the comfort I have had here.
There will be no end to the pattern here.
I am just not willing to invest the time.
I do not have what it takes to give this out of
a depleted font of energy that wants
to give what passion I have to
other things where I can succeed.
9:18 pm
SO MUCH BEAUTIFUL WRITING
SO much to clean up.
WINDY...
She is planning to leave her place.
My energy shifted the moment she came into my field
last night.
She works with the healing energy of horses.
She said she is preparing as if she were to move to
an Island in the Pacific. How much could she take with her.
TAKE CARE OF MY DAD IN LA?
Eva loves me.
That means a lot.
She is my niece.
My Dad could use some help.
I would like to upload something about my dad.
I think I know where it is now,
that video.
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