|
Garden Management Journal: Checking in with Myself
Garden Management Journal
October 24, 2010
6:12 pm
Date: 10/24/2010 8:22:54 PM ( 14 y ) ... viewed 1760 times
This photo was taken at Walden Pond
in 1998. I felt like I was keeping a 100 year old
appointment with Henry David Thoreau
that we had made. Showing up 100 years later
was a remarkable event. My international
coming out debut was at the Ecology and Feng Shui
Conference. I was on the program thanks
to the invite of William Spear. I broke my knee
three days before I was to leave San Diego
for Kirpalu Retreat center. If it had not been
for Feng Shui Lurrae I could not have never
kept that appointment.
The story reminds me that things we
imagine as impossible are possible.
I need to remember that today.
There are things that feel impossible
right now. I need them to be possible.
I am glad I have Grace FES--
Flower Essence Services Formula.
"Use the power of your Word
in the direction of Truth and Love."
Chef Jem reminds me of this
from The Four Agreements
Home from the Hillcrest Farmers' Market.
A shocking day in some ways.
My Olympus SP-57OUZ is not working.
This is my main camera that grounds my activity.
Then, I could not find the cord to the new Kodak
zi8.
There are parts of my that are work in an extraordinary
way. Fran put in an extraordinary effort to create a new
Plant Your Dream Site. I blogged about that.
The flyer I made I just saw has an error.
I corrected that. I also see that the link where to go
from more information is the site that I am counting on
Natan to have up to sell ticket. That site is not up.
This is suppost to be the link
Http://www.Beetkeepers.com.
There is a whole separate foundational part of my life
that has no reality base right now: the House.
There is not enough of me to come down to earth
and make a sucess of the Enchanted Garden Installation
at the Pacific Symposium and work through the issues
at the house.
I put the house on hold until after the Pacific Symposium.
I would like to know a few things that might help.
I have to say that during the summer I had many days
where I felt suicidal and could see not solution to the stress
here at home. I may have resolved a few of those stresses,
but there is still a gapping hole that I cannot deal with now.
I am hestitant to share too many details here.
RESULTS FROM THE MARKET TODAY
I set out to Fundraise for a new camera.
I have to be in constant listening mode.
I was led to David Getoff who became a sponsor.
I have many interactions to upload.
I wish I had a witness.
I truly believe that the FES Flower Essence Services
Remedies in combination with StayActiv and
Original Quinton Marine Plasma are holding my
life together.
These are remarkable remedies.
I would like to kick off the petition that I started yesterday.
It has ten signers.
Here is the petition.
I do not want to underestimate how much work I have to do
to fulfill some of the things I said today.
I had some rare and special spirit guided meetings.
I am llving in another world where there is One Beet.
I am in Sync with the flow of the Beat of Nature
that is using me as an instrument to carry out
some kind of natural order where all things fit together.
MARK HANNA
What is the chance of this happening?
Please witness this.
I have been having static with the Catamaran.
There is resistance to allow the use of the lower kitchen
for some prep of organic food I would have brought in.
Perhaps this is the way It is meant to be for now.
So I was imagining I would acknowledge the
Catamaran for being one of the first Hotels
that allowed its lower kitchen to be used by
other outside Health Chefs.
My spirit told me to give them an award for what
they had done in the past, but how could I get details
about that?
Then late last night, I got a call from George Vitatakis,
the Vegetarian Guy.
heads up! Mark Hanna was in town.
Oh My God!
Mark Hanna is a word class chef who is doing
some private work in Los Angeles now and Dubai
in the Mid East.
Mark was the primary chef who worked in the
Catamaran years ago. He was one of the lead Chefs
when we worked in the lower kitchen.
What is the chance is there of that happening????
I get the idea...or I hear the idea yesterday
to give the Catamaran an award for what they did do
in the past, and less that 24 hours later, the main
person who was there shows up for me to make
a video of him remembering that experience.
Last week I had a delgihtful conversation
with Alastair Revell the lead chef at the Catamaran.
Alistarie remembered the Health Classic being there.
That was maybe 15 years ago.
Today, Mark told me a story about remembering
he had worked with AAlastair Revell.
On top of this, Mark tells me that Larry Cooper,
the head of the Health Classic was also in town today.
I got his phone number.
I want to upload that footage.
I ALSO CONNECTED WITH A NUMBER OF OTHERS
First I got the sponsorship from
David Getoff.
That needs to be uploaded.
I got the funds that I asked for.
Then I asked for funds from Mark.
He said yes. I have to Face book him.
Then George helped out.
Another deer ally wanted to help,
but he was short at the end of the day.
I stood by and gave him some compassion
and healing. He was very down and needed
to process how difficult these times are.
I also saw Sara at the Market.
I called and her phone was disconnected.
She has been having severe suicidal feelings as well.
She showed up with her arm in a sling and strange
metal objects sticking out of the sling.
She must have injured herself.
MORE SPONSORS
LUCILA at Susies Farm
With Barry gone, I could use another sponsor.
My spirit is saying that it is enough to have Joe
if need be.
I only have so many days to work this out.
NEXT SUNDAY IS THE DAY I NEED
HELPERS TO COLLECT FOODS
I will need a helper.
One blow today.
I met a lovely young woman Thursday night.
We made a time to go to the FM today.
I was suppose to pick her up.
She was not there.
That triggered abandonment.
I wanted to know if she could be an assistant.
None of my assistants are really solid now.
There are all having issues.
I have to let that go with the idea
of training this new helper.
I cannot afford to be asking for help of
someone who is not reliable at this point.
CHECK IN WITH Jenny
Tell her about Marcia...
I need to count on her to move into the sublet.
TIFfANY
I need to confirm
helpers.
who v=can i count on?
HEADS UP ON THE SET UP DAY
This photo was taken at Walden Pond...
I need to follow up with
Then
Add This Entry To Your CureZone Favorites! Print this page
Email this page
 Alert Webmaster
|
