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Day 7
a week of fasting and not quite where i would like to be
Date: 1/27/2008 5:20:23 PM ( 16 y ) ... viewed 3139 times feeling ok today not great still. but not too bad. a little bored with things but i know i am heading in the right direction. still feel like i want to eat food but not going to give into the temptation. this is my first milestone making it one week. so cograts to me. im not so please about the wieght loss it is slow to say the least. i weighed myself this morning and i am 140 pd which is only down 5 pd in 7 days. i was really hoping for at least 7 pds so ill be looking for an increase in weight loss in the next few days.
i will go onto to 10 days and then see how i feel from there. not really sure how long i want to fast for i would like to think i had 30 days in me but im not sure i am so committed. i need to see or feel some better results than thus far to make me want to keep going.
i didnt have any BM's day 5&6 so i started oxypowder last nigth. it hasnt really kicked in the way it usually does so i will increase the dose tonight. i have slight back pain and slight headache which i think is still detox. i am gettign the strange head feeling i had last long fast which is like a stoned feeling but not a good mellow stone, kind of skiddish. my tongue is still white and my eyes still have yellow in them. my breath is rather disgusting too! sleeping really well a little too well dont want to get out of bed and cant wait to get back into it.
i bought my treadmill but still trying to construct the darn thing. its not that hard i just dont have the right tools so need to go to the hardware shop. i ran again yesterday and was hoping to be on the treadmill now but its not going. missing food but not really hungry. yesterday i had a lot of juice, two huge glasses of orange juice and 2 of pineapple. also some MC lemonade and veggie broth, water and herbal tea. today i am not as hungry, so far only one juice, i will have some lemonade later and probably just herbal tea tonight.
i am having a few doubts about how i am doing this fast. i dont feel like i am giving my body loads of nutrients like i did last long fast. i managed to drink far more veggie juice last time althought still not as much as i needed too. today i tried carrot juice and oh my gosh i was nearly throwing up before it even got to my lips. i thought i would be able to replace with wheetgrass but that just did not work out either. i guess i am just going to have to be pleased that at least im not putting anything bad into me and i am giving my digestive system a rest. i will say it was nice today shopping and not feeling tempted to eat any of the samples in the store - btw i love all the freeby taste testign stands! especially at central market and wholefoods..and the soup oh gosh did it smell good but i just knew i couldnt have it so there was no choice. i like that about fasting. it takes the pressure off.
i guess also i should try to rewire my brain about my body. i am 60 pounds lighter today than i was 2 years ago when i started my first fast. im really proud i have been able to keep the weight off. i have been 10 pounds lighter than i am today and felt really good, i maintained this for almost a year. i felt light, fit, sexy and just really lean and great. today i do feel a little lighter but puffy and rolly and not so sexy. 130 is the weight where i look my best, anything under that and i start to look a little gaunt in the face. but the thing is 140 for me is where my body is the most comfortable. it is easy for me to maintain and the weight which i keep going back to no matter if a i gain a little or lose a little. my body is happy here and it suits my lifestyle but im jsut not completely ok with it. i dont like my spare tire for a stomach and i hate that i cant wear jeans and tuck a tshirt in without worrying about how much fat is stickign out. i know i shuld just learn to like me the way i am but im much happier thinner. argghhh it is such a headf#*&% for me. well im hpoing i can acheive a little more balance this fast and get back to the healthy choices i was making. then maybe i want concerntrate so much on my weight but more how i am feeling and teh control i can have over my food and exercise choices. it is going to be a life long thing for me so i better get good at it!
im not sure why my day 5&6 post didnt go on the home page of curezone so hopefully this one will.
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