Hating Scorpio..

I'm a 47 yr. old male scorpio and have struggled all my life with being one..I find myself so deep thinking, emotional, and just plain depressed most of the time..pure water..I have sag rising and my moon is in gemini which makes for a very unfocused and restless mindset..I can barely focus on any endeavors, including careers that never last and have been in 4-5 relationships my whole life, all of them leaving me..Reading is very difficult after 20 min..I've had a local astrologer do my chart and she said I have a "very difficult" chart..Liz Greene, a very well known astrologist, did a psychological astrology report which was very direct, revealing, and true of myself, yet downright depressing..I've never had money or a good relationship in my life and it shows why in my chart..Scorpios have the ability to "rise up" from the ashes because there always falling into them..A terrible sign, chart, and one I wish I could change..But I'm stuck with it..Any other scorpios feeling what I'm saying? Tweet