i need help (Off Topic)

i just want to say thank you turiya from Iodine support forum.
sorry this has nothing to do with oil pulling but you saved me slashing my wrists.
i just dont know what to do.
You guys on Iodine didnt even give me a chance to explain myself.
You even said that mercury fluride etc... are toxic so you can relate to how ifeel
i tried to post an answer to explain.
I just want to die after reading your posts.
i do apologize for saying the d word. is willy swearing?
in england this isnt swearing so i couldnt understand why you got so offened.
i thought it would be ok to vent my anger on how im feeling as this was suppossed to be the open minded forum.
you know what its like to feel like im feeling from detox ....and how deppressing it is.
im on my own i can see no light at the end of the tunnel.
im just reaching out for help.
This is not my personality its just ive given up tap water ,sleeping tablets whiteflour and ciggarettes and antideppressents.
it was actually seeing the Iodine support forum which gave me the courage to quit.
ive been taking the iodine.
i was ok at first then just felt horrendous.
i logged on to the iodine supprt forum again for help but i couldnt get advice just people being mean and petty....sorry is petty swaering in america?????
its been six days now i cant sleep im hallucinating and covered to the bone in sweat...im having nightmares awake.my teeth hurt so much i want to pull them out...i want to cut myself so badly.
i cant take it anymore....i thought people who take iodine could empathize as theye probably been through hell too. and what mercury etc.. does to people.
how do i get out of this...will it end?
please god help me