Addiction to OP

I have posted something like this before, but I am really seeing it now. My hot water heater was off for three days this week, so I had to shower elsewhere which threw off my routine of pulling while in the bath. I have to tell you I have been REALLY bent out of shape, especially yesterday after three days of no pulling. I wanted to cry all day, I was exhausted, I felt like hell. Well today I had hot water and returned to my routine, and I feel superb. What is the point? Well, I think the point is that I am addicted to pulling (not to mention it is annoying to have to shower somewhere else) and I wonder if that's okay. At this point I CAN'T stop or I feel like hell.