Re: I'm back and so is she. 3rd day of tapping

Yesterday I went outside and said...thankyou God for giving me the "sign" that I am forgiven, that you have heard the things I have asked for, You have seen my need, You care about me and to continue to perservere and "believe." Today as I sat down to my computer, she came again. Her male partner came with her and sat on the feeder. She began to tap again. The male just sat there. He's flown off but I'm sure is near by. She doesn't try to eat. She only taps AGAIN over and over on the window. Between the few seconds before she taps again, I noticed that she churps too. Boy, if I don't figure out this message soon, I'm afraid she'll keel over!

1. So, what type of empowerment do I need? (Personality traits .. confidence etc.)
If you could understand what I feel like I've lost and the pain I've been through then the answer to what I need should be easy but I don't know how to get there....or what to do....or how to empower myself again (if I ever felt empowered in the first place).

2. What type of life changes do I want to make? (Goals/Intentions)
I think it would benefit me to move from my present location.
I want to change my job...there is a person there who did me great emotional harm and I have endured it like a champ now for more than 3 months. I know my talents can afford me to do even better things than where I'm at now....and yes, I have asked and I am working on believing that this can happen.

3. What type of plan am I going to put together? (Physical, emotional etc.)
The plan....hmmm..lol. Well, I know I need to get myself in better physical condition. I have really been working on this but have only found myself becomming weeker and exausted from cleansing and detoxing. I keep going though...trying to educate myself more and understand what is happening with my body. I do all these "good" things for myself but then enduldge on the weekends, putting more toxins in. I guess my body just can't catch up. Last night I did not enduldge!...but it was hard. Being a musician, the party scene kinda goes along with it. But I just kept thinking of that damn BIRD! Was she warning me? I hope it's more than that. I hope so desprately that this means more than that....That something wonderful (for a change) IS about to happen. I certainly have been working on those negative thoughts in my head to the point where it's almost like torchure.
Invincible, she is still tapping!