Celci

I understand you must be fantasizing about what I look like, no doubt the thought of me keeps you warm at night.

Many men who are in denial about their homosexuality take the route you do, the unavailable fantasy.   There is nothing wrong with being gay, and you should not feel ashamed.  It won't change my opinion of you.  To me you will always be that reticent, ignorant, toxic, parnaoid, troll you have always been.