Pleeease get that death sentence out of your mind. Please don't look to the past 'what if's'. Start fresh and new!
The sentence your doctor gave you is the worse thing he could have done. It reminds me of my friends uncle...the doctor said, "You have 3 months to 3 years to live" Well....because he was ALIVE, he decided to live as long as he was told he could...he died exactly 3 years later...to the month!
It's suggestion. Self-hypnosis.
Go to 'Ask Dr. Schulze ' Forum and go to Page 1. Read his responses to all the other people's troubles. You will soon be inspired! He has helped people cure themselves thousands of times. It's not HIM that is doing the curing - it is the people themselves. (the ONLY way to heal is to heal yourself - allow your body to heal itself)
So, pleeease...click on the link below and read #1 to #6 - THOROUGHLY. And just do it! What have you got to lose?
You will live for as long as YOU want to live. It's for you to decide.