It's Love not lust. We started our relationship under the premise that I would pay her rent and visit her every month while I was getting well. After 2 years, that agreement no longer works for me because it doesn't seem like I'll ever get well. I wanted her to 'get on' with her life so I backed out of our agreement, but Wildflower has 'stuck' with me. We still email each other quite often and talk on the phone, but haven't seen each other in 6 months......WY