Hello Maya, have you got through the Yuen book yet? How goes it? Did you by chance read the Sha book? You know, the more I read/study/ask for guidance about *all that*, the simpler it seems to get.
which was always, I think, my *soul's* knowing--the thing is, the mind(or this consciousness) not to mention the normal body-mind mode of things, would have us (or maybe that's me) wanting to see ev-er-y-thing.
It's like that old parable of the person shot with an arrow, who wants to know where the arrow came from, how it was made, of what source are the feathers, how do the birds live....
:-)
The soul's knowing would say, remove the arrow, bless the all... and -- c'est ca.