Re: still here - symptoms/effects

thanks for the support.
I "f-d" up and ate today which makes me feel like a big loser.
I was doing great all day and then left to pick up my son from school. We were walking quit a ways, trying to catch a cab and finally did. I was so spent. He also was in a horrible mood when I picked him up and hit me and was being difficult, which was draining to me. anyway, we're in the can and he didn't eat any of his lunch and I, without much though, except for thinking what a shame it was that this food would be wasted, started eating it!!
I'm highly dissapointed in myself. I feel like I have no self-control and am destined to be fat and unhealthy and alone. I know, it's extreme. But that's how I feel right now.
I'm on my period and in pain and self-hating like crazy.

should I just keep going or what?
I don't want to keep up this yo-yo. that can't be healthy. I drank the senna tea tongiht anyway. I can't decide if I should just get up in the AM and forge on.
part of me thinks I should but then I kind of think I might very well be hurting my body by this extreme back and forth.
I hate going out on a bad note. I would rather fast for a couple days and go off properly. I don't know what to do.
signed, sad-feeling sorry for myself-single mother