Hi Libra,
I sure could use some help if spirit sees fit. I can relate to your beliefs. I am a Buddhist by choice after being raised Baptist.
Anyway since I moved to a farm in the country over an hour away from my work last year, I have been restless and confused. It gets worse as time goes by. I know I did the right thing by moving. I was sure an opportunity would come up so I would not have to keep up the commute. I am really feeling lost and can not see a future. I recently bought a rental house. I keep thinking maybe I should give up the dreams that I had for the farm and move into the rental house. I've been depressed and stressed. I wake up every night with my heart pounding and my head throbbing. I feel trapped and don't know which way to turn. I feel my spirit guides are trying to help me through my dreams. Sometimes I understand their message. Maybe you can help.