Superhero,
I'm sorry you don't get it yet. Maybe it will just take some time. Is it nice where you are? I'd like to suggest that you go outside and sit in the sunshine and ask the holy spirit to fill your heart with pure love.
Now, which is better, Heaven or Earth? God's embrace, or being sold into prostitution at the age of 4 to support your mom's crack habit?
Love,
Sem