Love is real and important. Do not doubt it's importance. In your whole life (since birth) have you ever loved anyone? Parents?Friends, anybody? Love is important and it is what marriage is based on. Become a believer in love. That's the problem. What a load of lies she is feeding you, and you are falling for it. She seems very happy doing what she wants and will always tell you that she cares about your happiness. You are her Doormat.