i have dissapointed her

Well... the story begins 1 year ago. We were classmates and very good friends. But, after a while i have fallen in love with her... It was not very easy to win her heart... I have tried almost 4 months to win her trust (she doesn't trust very much people and if she does) and, on the 8th of november, last year, she accepted to be with me. Everything worked just fine with her, we were one, but i had a lot of problems with my family (my parents don't seem to get along, they wanted to divorce, etc. etc.) and, because of the pressure i started to not talk to people, to wander alone, trying to resolve my problems. In that period i should have involved her... but i didn't. I just walked away from her. After 11 months the problems seemed to resolve themselves and i remembered Michelle (this is her name) and noticed that i still love her. I called her, we meet and we talked. I told her all my problems, but all she wanted was just to be friends, because i have lost her trust. I told her that i could try to win her back and that is what i am going to do. But, i have also told her that if she feels that it will not work, she will tell me and i will stop "teasing" her. This happened 3 days ago. While we were walking in the park, she was not looking very well. I've asked her what happened about 20 times (as you may see, i am kind of... perseverent) and she told me that it will never be the same and she wants just to be very best friends. I've asked her if it is all because of me (because i haven't involved her in that period) and she said yes, but, after a couple of seconds she said that it was her fault, too. - probably she said that to not hurt me very much. But it was too late, because i felt kind of down because i knew that i had to keep my promise... but... i don't want to... every law must be broken (ok... to every...) so you can break a promise, too. Should i do that (i really do want to do that) ? If so, how should i try to win her trust again? I don't think that she doesn't feel anything about me... Tweet