Hi there....do you know if you have Uranus conjunct your Moon in your natal chart? (or Aquarius Moon?) It sounds like it...on all levels. There may have been an unexpected 'shock' before you were 5 that severed a bond with your mother...? This 'aquarian' energy is very sensitive to chemical, the environment and negative energy of all sorts. The good news is that the world is catching up to you Maidenn...the vibrations are getting higher and you're sure to feel more comfortable in the years ahead. I wonder if you're noticing any differences yet? I know other Aquarian/Uranian energy people that are beginning to feel more comfortable in the earth atmosphere now....just within the last year...