hmm.. "a cocaine habit", stof? why don't you ask yours truly, the commander in chief. seeing that he's a "recovered" user, he may have some inside tips on this one. as for the manic psychobabble, as a healthcare provider i can tell you that peopel with certain disorders frequently try to put off their afflictions as someone else's problems, when in actualiry, they're the one suffering from the disease. for example, someone who is chronically forgetful will, rather than admit to their forgetfulness, accuse the other person of not telling them something which they forgot. it's really sad to witness... the great news is, there's medication and therapy. and it really works. i know that by typing these messages, intonation, a crucial part of communication, is lost, but i really am not being sarcastic about this. when you're ready, there is help.