Dear Bluegirl
I hope this name does not refer to your emotional state, if it does, change it!
I feel that you need to do a lot of healing work and the best place to start is at the beginning.
Please get a copy of my "Common Sense Health and Healing" book from my company at 1-800-HERBDOC or from Amazon .com and start on ALL of the 20 steps.
Instead of looking for a fix it is better that you create a new. healthy, positive, fun and loving life.
So lets get started!
Dr. Richard Schulze