Yes it sounds like you where sexually abused as a child. You should seek help in bringing up the suppresed memories that
come out as flashbacks. I have a friend that never had the flashbacks until she was 38. It happened when she was 3 and she kept
it all locked inside for 35 years. It more or less destroyed her life both mentally and physcially. She is undergoing counciling now
and knows it may take months or years to become the person she was meant to be. Talk to your husband about it, and let him
know that if he sticks with you, he will be rewarded in the end with a very happy functional wife. Don't put it off any longer. Best of luck.