TRACEY-need your positive outlook

Been going through alot of internal stuff lately. Going to Kryon website and trying to disgest/assimulate those messages. Feel like I'm hitting a wall. Went to bed last night with alot of
unsettled issues. Tried sitting in the chair (6th book of Kryon)
but ended up visualising a bright white light that seemed to eminate from a dark sphere. That was last thing I remember before I heard a voice say... YOU ARE GOING TO HELL.
Well that woke me up and sent me to the fridge for comfort.
I know this is a central issue/belief from childhood (3rd grade)
I've been over(& over & over)this stuff so much I'm sick of it!
Evidently I have faced it on an intellectual level, but perhaps emotionally I'm still that child, knowing I'm condemed and nothing I do or say can change that. (how do you fight GOD?)
I do realise that I have been given an answer as to WHY I can't seem to get anywhere. Just don't know how to proceed. Marj