Re: Anger ?
Dear Zule,
As a general you cannot be angry with someone else, unless you are with yourself. If you are truly in peace with and full acceptance of who and what you are, no situation or person could make you angry. If anyone did something that is "unethical," "wrong," or "dishonest" you would not pereceive these qualities as such anymore. You would see the fear and distress behind the person's words or actions, and actually feel compassion or love for them. If you have no more need to defend yourself or protect your heart against possible hurt, nobody will turn up in your life to attack or criticize you. By having judgments of yourself, your attract judgments from others. By being critical with yourself, you attract criticism from others. By loving and accepting yourself, you attract those who love and accept you. The world is your mirror, nothing less and nothing more. The world treats you the way you see it or believe it is like. There is not threat out there except the one you create inside yourself.
Much of what you are going through is related to past lives of yours where you did those things that you would now judge in others. You carry guilt within you that is now being processed. The anger is the explosive energy of profound guilt of wrongdoing in past lives, and perhaps even in this life. Keeping it inside of you would attack your body and mutate cells. Letting it out doesn't make you feel so much better. Transforming this destructive energy into useful energy would be a better approach. Releasing the original trauma of conflict from past lives, which is held in the body's celluar memories through soul memory transference at the time of birth is very useful. I help people do that doing Sacred Santemony (see my website). My wife Lillian (beaconazul@aol.com) also works with that through a different angle. My book Freedom from Judgment also helps people release their need of self-judgment, which is the origin of anger.
Andreas