Your message was not a downer at all. In fact, I'm one of the shadowy readers who lurks around reading everybody else's testimonial and has total faith that these things work for other people but was too shy to talk about feeling the same way.
So if anything it was a comfort to read your thoughts.
And also it was a bigger comfort that you are persisting anyway!
Very good wishes for your health and heart's-ease,
Your fellow traveler truckin' the road to recovery,
Autumn