You said something that really hit home for me: You were low on money, but still happy. It has taken me a long time to realize that I was not going to be rich; just being able to keep a roof over my head, feed my family and pay the bills on time is enough to make me happy. I sort-of felt like I was settling for a mediocre life; I somehow found happiness through it, though
I think that some day you will reach your goals, and these days will be the character builders and lessons you reflect on. I am so sorry you have to go through this. Hope your day gets better FOY