Re: Choosing OUr Parents

Hi,

Here's my story.

My childhood sucked! My mother was more like a neighbor. My father was an alcholic ( he passed at age 53 just over a year ago) My Dad however was a good man when he was sober he had a lot of love and support to offer.

My Mother as I said was more like a neighbor most of my life. I guess she thought that working full time and going to school fulltime would benifit me also. I have forgiven her for the mistakes she made durning my childhood. But, I'm having trouble foriving her for the fact that I am 34 years old and she still treats me like a 12 year old. VERY long story. The quick of it: I live in a duplex next door to her and the step-&*%&**&, father. They both treat me like crap. Emotional, mental and verbally abusive (just like when I was a child) except much worse.

My mother is the GUILT QUEEN. I can't live my life the way I choose (husband and daughter) because she guilts me like no one would believe. Belittles me, it's awfull. I'm tired of playing the victim as well.

So, as for picking our parents, I often find myself asking
"WHAT WAS I THINKING?????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What lesson could possible come out of the years of abuse? Who's lesson is it mine, her's his all of ours???
Help, I'm at a lost and quickly losing what's left of myself, which isn't much.