wow. that's a long time. i'm sorry you had to go through all this. i just started about a month and a half ago. i'm 16 years old. i guess i didn't really think of it as self injury when i cut and scratched myself...until i researched it and found out what it really is and foudn that there are others who can support me. i don't think you're a freak. sometimes i think i am, but then i realize that i cut myself for the same reasons people have addictions to drugs or have an eating disorder. they aren't more sane than i am. the important thing for me is not letting myself be defined as a cutter. it's not who i am. it puzzles me sometimes b/c i don't really know how it started or exactly why i thought pain was a good way to relieve stress. but anyway, i'm here and you can write to me any time. thanks for offering your support! stay strong