However, he is with you as he is part of you and you are part of him.
Talk to him and about him. Your closeness to him will never fade. Unbelievable to some, he will answer, because you are imbued with his spirit and the things he taught you, which will open up in bits and pieces as you need them in your travel through your life.
He gave you life - there is a reason for it. Search for that and that itself will help you find an island of peace to retreat to in these difficult times.
Take deep breaths and feel his embrace, then take small measures to bring yourself some calm moments. Time, and one small step at a time will help you get to a point where you can think of your tomorrows.
May the wings of angels embrace you through this time....