Trapper, I am very sorry for you. Your doctrine is so far off. How did you ever get so confused..you poor thing. I sure do hope and pray for the Lord to open your eyes. And you are so unwilling to hear truth. I feel so sorry to see you argue with truth.
I know there are many of God's people praying for you and I hope they continue.
I am just so sorry...my heart is so heavy for you.