...you might know the answer to that better than I would. We all have some rebellion in us, to a greater or lesser degree. The reason for this is quite obvious, and it's the reason for Jesus having come to rescue us. That sin nature tries to rear it's ugly face in everyone once in a while. But the only way for any of us to know if at any time this is going on with us, is to be honest with God and with ourselves while in prayer. You would be surprised at how many things the Holy Spirit will show us that we don't like, and that's just part of our growth process.
By the way, this is the way to judge yourself first,so that you will not be judged by others. But I'm sure you've been through this yourself.