Re: A family affair?

Hi

I am struggling at this moment and have done so my whole life. I don't think I have ever been really happy. I just ran out of pills since my suicide attempt and the doctors won't give me more, so I'll have to wait til I can get a hold of some. I am still very good at pretending I'm a balanced person and people often ask me for advice. I am good at giving advice to others that seem to help but can't help my own "demons" or whatever you might call it. It's really strange! I have always been longing for death, but keep living so nobody will get upset or sad, especially my mom. I don't know why I have always been like that, but now it's worse than "normally". I keep praying as usual but it doesn't help. Pray for me please