Hello again...

I just want to say thank you to all of you for your kind advice and support. It feels better to talk to people who know what you are going through. Some of the things you have suggested I already been doing and the others I am willing to try. I don't drink soda, I drink alot of water, have lots of veggies, fruit, vitamin C, zinc. When I went to to doctor she did gave me Valtrex (500mg)x 3 to use for 2 days and 1g for 2 days and it did not go away...I'm also on erythromycin for Acne (do you know if Antibiotics affect herpes medicine?).

With regard to other conditions I might have, that might be affecting my progress: I have problems falling alseep and staying asleep. I have taken Ambien (gives me nightmares)and Sonata (does not put me to sleep). I now take about 4 Simply Sleep every night in order to sleep.

I also suffer from anxiety/sometimes panic attacks but I don't take medicine for that. I take medication for eczema but mostly in summer (I was prescribed hydroxyzine - which is also used for anxiety and I sometimes use cetrine) I'm writing this and I feel like a nutjob. I haven't had panic attack in years but I feel general anxiety everyday.

The other thing, about how it got it. It happened like this: We had not seen each other in about 3 weeks but we spoke on the phone. During this period he was sick for a couple a day anyway we made arrangements to meet for dinner one night. I was meeting him in the city. That night I waited for him at a prearranged spot, I was on the phone and he came up to me and kissed me and said that he "missed me". My mind was elsewhere and I have to admit I wasn't paying him much attention because I looking at the street for puddles. I was wearing new boots! It only when we got to restaurant I saw the cold sore on hip upper lip. I was thinking "Oh God, please let my lipstick protect me." Weird diner conversation because we talked about everything except what was on my mind. I went back to his place (no sex of course) because I guess it was convenient and I was tired (I had 2 glasses of wine and barely any food) I asked him later it he always got cold sores and he said yes since he was child. I did not sleep that night and did not sleep the following night. I don't think he did it on purpose though. Some people I think are careless about these thing and don't realise the how serious they are. That happened in late February and remembering having a buring in sensation on that spot and some peeling and which I foolishly/hopefully attributed to the cold weather. March was a haze of denial and going out and drinking and then when the spot turned into a bump then I could not be denial anymore. That was April it is now June and and like I've said it has spread to my cheeks, my noise bridge, nostrils, my cheeks, the space between my eyes and and the corners of my eyes. The funny things is with all this stress and craziness I am not having a genital outbreak.

Sorry to be so long but I just don't have anyone to talk to right now. Again thank you for thoughts and your prayers. I will try to pray too. Tweet