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Can't seem to get it back!
Hi
I think I used to be anorexic before I went to uni although I never went anywhere near the doctors.
Some of my symptoms:
I used to weigh myself every morning and every evening and go completely mad if I hadn't lost any weight in the day.
I used to love the feeling of hunger because it meant that I was loosing weight
I used to skip as many meals as possible
I went to the gym all the time and excersized alot
I covered myself up a lot even though I was skinny
I thought I was huge even though looking at photos now show me being v skinny
I used to drink alcohol to fill myself up when I went out so that noone would notice
I hated being seen anywhere 'fat' like Macdonalds etc because I thought people would stare at me as if yo say 'you shouldnt be in there you should loose weight'
Etc etc etc...
The problem is I got an illness that makes me very depresssed and after being at University for 3 years I've put on 3 stone and I don't watch my eating or excersize anymore. I'm depressed because I overeat BIG STYLE but I cant stop.
I just cant seem to get back the drive I had before! It sounds stupid but I really want to be as I was before!
Help