Recovered bulimic - 5 years
Hello everyone :),
I am a recovered bulimic of 5 years.
I am now 38, was 15 when I started, so did it for...
18 years. My worst period was from age 15-22. It was
on average 1-3 times a day. At the age of 23 I started to
really want to stop this behaviour but as we all know
it is tough. I started to do it every 2-3 days. Then
went for about 1 weeek, then 6 months without doing it.
I also liked to go out to clubs a lot, and the next
day would do it cause of the body imbalance from drinking.
ANYWAYS! What I wanted to say is... that for me anyways,
it is 2 things that made me do it. First was CANDIDA.
I have had candida since a wee child, so I have always craved
sugar. The 2nd was... I liked to look good, so wanted
to be just right in the weight department.
I feel that also,
Depression can cause this, but for me...
candida was the cause of my depression. I tried for years
to stop the bulimia, and until I did my first candida
diet years ago, the cravings were tough.
When you start a candida diet, it is tough, I mean tough,
but I kept at it and am ok.
Also, I became very sick, and dont think it was from bulimia,
think everything. I became chemically allergic to everything
in the world when I was 31, and had to quit job, move in with
family and so on. I still am not better but getting there.
Have had to do deep soul searching to get well, find out why
I got sick, why I did abusive behaviour... and for me...
because I was so near death many times healing myself
from my sick body... I found out... that it did not matter
if I gained 5lbs or 10
lbs. I now can eat a piece of cake or 2 and not go throw it up. I HAVE no guilt and that is great.
Always had guilt when I was bulimic, always had a secret, never wanted someone to stare at me in the face when I was talking to them.
ALSO! just because your gums are bad, dont think you cannot get them back. You can... mine have started to grow back... you have to get into some cleansing possibly... try the candida, some
spirlulina, some juicing... probiotics,
I had very senstive teeth, and now they have improved about 70%.
It is not an overnight thing, but it can be done.
REBUILD your body. I mean, if you cut yourself, you heal dont you? so why cannot a body grow back, it can, it just takes work, researching, and changing diet.
My face is normal now. I have cheekbones! hahaha, never had cheekbones before. I am now about 10lbs of what I want to be, but I am still getting well from my lyme diseaese....
I have had lyme about 15 years, and that was an underlying health problem.
Hope this helps someone, :)
Gehna