You are so right, dear one. It is ALL about emotional roots. And it is a way to hurt yourself, even though this is happening at the unconcsious level. You can bring the unconscious to the conscious through bodywork and a very good psychotherapist who specializes in eating disorders. I offer you hope, I have seen healing of these issues in clients and a relative. It takes commitment and a good strong will, and it sounds like you have those when you say "I want to stop" Read my post on this forum, with some other recommendations including a good book. Blessings