Kind and encouraging words needed.

I am 32 year-old male living in Poland with my Polish wife.

Although I appear to be in good condition, I am actually quite depressed about my health.

My wife is convinced it is psychological and stress-related.

A number of things have happened over the last few years:

We have no children and my wife has had three miscarriages in the last four years
My father in law (last surviving parent) passed away three months ago.
I have had a number of stomach problems over the last year (probably stress related – I have a job that I enjoy but have trouble enjoying when I am stressed)
I’m not really enjoying life that much at the moment – lots of work commitments and very little sunshine in my life.

I feel sad most of the time and I’ve been experiencing constant irritating problems with my health for the last 12 months – facial rash that comes and goes, headaches, poor posture and backaches. The latest started with a dull pain in my groin area two months ago. The pain seems to have spread from the right side of my upper thigh, groin area and to the left. I suspected some problems with my lymph system, although I didn’t notice any lumps or bumps until a couple of weeks ago. I started reading on this site about what might be troubling me and after scaring myself to death that it may be cancer, I bought two of Andreas’s books and did my first (reasonably successful-lots of very little light green specks, but only a few pea-sized stones) Liver Flush last week. The dull ache has persisted and spread to my armpits and I am now literally terrified. I am torn between doing things the holistic way, but my understanding of my body and what is going wrong with it is extremely limited. In the morning I convince myself psychologically that I am in good health. Then in the evening, I am convinced I have cancer. I would prefer not to go to a western doctor, who I am worried will identify the symptoms and send me home with a big bottle of Antibiotics and not really cure me. But I don’t know what to do with my ailing health. I need answers and it seems I need them fast. On top of this, I have a head cold and a high temperature. Should I go to the doctor?

I want to feel good again. I miss the bliss of good health.

I am a soft person. I can be very loving but I also have trouble saying no to people. In doing so, I realize I am saying no to myself. I was often teased as a child for being feminine. My childhood was mostly ok although my Dad drunk quite a lot and my Mum was probably too soft – I took after her.

Please respond, anybody, soon. I would like some encouragement. I am at an all-time low.

Thanks.
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