Re: How can I let 5 years slip away?
Hi Fallenmoonstar, i'm sure you're going through heck of a tough time, and i know it hurts like son of a gun inside. the relationship was just always "convenient" to him. i'm sure he loved you and cared for you to a certain point considering the years that you guys been together, but i don't think he ever cared and loved you ENOUGH. i know you probably think you want to spend the rest of your life with him, especially because he's your first, but he went out with some other girl when you guys were together. you DEFINITELY do not want to spend your life with someone like that even though you love him so much. it will be at least a couple of years until you get over him (you will always love him and miss him occasionally after that just because he's your first and you will always love him), it's better to be in for a couple of years and to be in pain and waste the rest of your life with him. it's not as easy as it seems, i know..... because i was in your shoes. get the idea that you will get back with him when he says he wants to get back togehter out of your mind! he keeps calling you because he knows that you will always be there for him no matter what, so he has to keep you as a back up in case something goes wrong in his life. this is not a man who loves you unconditionally. no matter who you are, or what situation you're in, you will be able to find someone who treat you good like you deserve. even if you get back together with him, he WILL lie to you (i can guarantee it), from what you said, he's very cold hearted and doesn't care for anything that much. how could he have said that he's not ready to get back together with you after 5 years of relationship. i don't blame you if you cannot see what a jerk he is because when you are in love, you're blind. try to avoid his phone calls, make yourself stop from calling him, or dropping by his place to check up on him to see if any girl is there, this is not going to help you at all. you will be a lot stronger if you can pass this point. 10 years from now, you will look back and you WILL be glad that you two are not together anymore. if you get back together, 10 years from now, you will still be crying. i wish you all the best.