not another disease again...

Help girls and boys! i am really scared. every week i come up with a new diagnosis. it just kind of dawns on me all of a sudden, i spend a sleepless night researching it, and every time it feels like, yes, all pieces of the puzzle fit so well. then i barely go through the night and the first thing in the morning, black circles around my eyes, i try frantically to get an appointment. back in december, when i first started having GI problems, I of course had colon cancer. then i added candida to the cancer. it was a nightmare until i did the cat scan. then i dropped the cancer but decided to stick to the candida. and of course added hiv/aids. it all has to be some end-of-the-world thing, and something degenerative, something terminal. like alzheimers. i am super attracted to diseases that are extremely stressful and emotionally difficult to deal with. if i have better days, it would be something like adrenals exhaustion or mercury toxicity. and that's all despite the fact that i have a fabulous acupuncturist and naturopath, and that i've been getting better.

how about now, you ask? it's MS, multiple sclerosis. because of my neurological problems. it all of a sudden struck me and here i am today, self-diagnosed again. and all the symptoms start as soon as i try to distract myself with a book or something. now it's tingling. i am sick of this! please heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelp!!!!!!!!!!!! you know, when you can name your illness, at least you know what you are dealing with. you come to terms with it, in some way or another. but this is totally driving me crazy. well, i guess you can call this an anxiety attack, but please say something please........