Re: anyone else affected by the weather?

i like that concept - thinking of a new and healthy you instead of the past. that is when i get down too. when i think of what it was like before i got sick. it makes me cry. i shed a few tears today on my drive home from work tonight but i am doing a little better now.

you are definitely right about the fibromyalgia. i had it really bad in the beginning and i have pretty much got rid of it. but it flares up from time to time just like it did today. it is for the most part gone again, but i have the blood pumping in the back of my legs now. yuk.

i feel like i am stepping backwards lately...it's like the harder i try and the more i research, the worse i get...almost like i am regressing back to old symptoms. it is scaring me. and i am starting to feel like i can't handle lemons now either which is crazy! i put a few in my jug of water daily and i am noticing my throat starting to flare up and feel funny when i drink it. i also figured out today that it wasn't cleaning solution after all that was bugging me while i was sitting at my desk! the citrus smell was the lemons i threw out in my trash can that were starting to ferment. they messed me up really bad! i couldn't believe it! aaaaaagggghhh...and all this dwelling on things on the boards isn't helping me either. i am so thankful for everyone on here, but at the same time i feel like i let this consume every waking minute of my life. it's all i think about...instead of just doing things i enjoy like reading a book (non candida related!)...i research and post and research and post and i think it is unhealthy. i need to give it rest for a bit and stop reading and just let me body tell me what to do....

so don't think i am abandoning you all if i don't post much over the next few weeks...but i think i really truly need a mental detox. i am at a real low point mentally and i need a break.