Re: How Many Deaths?

this is off the subject but i graduated from the university of pittsburgh and now i am back home outside of philly where i grew up. sometimes i wonder what part of the country/world you guys are all at...it just sorta hit home a little bit to hear pittsburgh. if anyone else wants to post where there are from, it would be nice to know.

anyways...i have had days in the beginning stages of this where i truly thought i was losing my mind...and being that my dad is a schizophrenic, my family was definitely a little worried about my mental state. even though they never said it to me, it was written all over their faces. it really made me think that maybe there was some other cause to my dad's illness, other than just a random chemical imbalance that just miraculously came about when he was in his late twenties, early thirties.

i have read that candida can lead to mental disorders, and i would've never believed that if i didn't have it. i really felt like i was losing control when i was going from doctor to doctor in the beginning and they all kept saying i was healthy and nothing was wrong. it was really scary. it makes me sad to think maybe there could've been a different outcome for my dad instead of the depressing and miserable life he lives now. he has been on every anti-psychotic known to man and he is completely fried, even more psychotic than he ever was when i was a kid...and he is too far gone to ever live a normal life now.

i guess i would say i could definitely see this thing leading to suicide in some cases.