I hope that you do not take offense at what I am about to tell you.....I will begin by saying that I, myself, have done what I am about to suggest that you may try. Please try meetings of Alcoholics Anonymous.....Narcotics Anonymous and Overeater's Anonymous. You will be able to identify with people at all three of these places and they will be able to help you. Sincerely,
"Been there and done it all".......Blueduck