Help Wanted 4 Eating Disorder Recovery

I have had years where I couldn't choose between anorexia and bulimia...still do! I discovered the raw food diet through a friend and although have not committed fully to it, I am going to give it a shot as my new years resolution...I found myself less needing to indulge my anorexia because the diet leaves me w/ a light, empty feeling in my stomach, yet, i am strong enough to exercise. The problem is with the bulimic tendancies....the feeling of no outlet to purge my negative feelings of lack of control....you tend to eat what and when you desire as long as its raw. And, although I know it is food that cannot make me fat, I then dwell on dropping the habits of indulgence. I also drink and do drugs alot. Can I give all this up? I don't know if I can do it alone. Is there anyone out there that can relate with me?
Signed,
paula